things fall apart.

I feel like there is nothing I can do. I feel so out of control. Like, Im sitting in the passenger seat, and the driver is out to kill me. I havent slept in weeks, I cry all the time. I have never felt so alone. My whole world has been tipped upside down, and flipped inside out. I have to FORCE myself to eat, and even then... I dont eat much. I never want to do anything, I just want to stay home.
I dont get depressed easy, hardly ever actually. I sometimes get a little sad, but that lasts a day.(at the most) I just dont know what has come over me, I guess reality.
I just cry and cry and cry.
Things going wrong lately..
1.) father.
2.) money.
3.) relationships.
4.) bills.
5.) religion

All these things are weighing so heavily on my heart, I dont know what to do anymore. It seems like my whole exsistance is pointless. I dont know who I am, or how to act. Ive lost everything...
or maybe, I have just lost me.